I was listening to a song this morning and the lyrics hit me like a ton of bricks so I wanted to share. The song is called “Just be held” by Casting Crowns and some of the lyrics go like this:
(Listen here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIZitK6_IMQ)
“So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your worlds not falling apart, its falling into place
I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held
If your eyes are on the storm
You’ll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross
You’ll know I always have and always will.”
If I am being honest, I really struggle with this concept, with just being held by Jesus. In my uncertainty and fear, I tend to reach my hand out for anything and everything I can control.
The storm is raging, life is overwhelming and I just want to know it’s going to be okay. So, I do my best to gauge the forecast for what lies ahead and prepare adequately, all to realize that I simply can’t do it on my own.
And in that moment, I just need to be held.
I need to let Jesus do what He says He will do and stop deceiving myself that the success of my journey ever depended on the strength I exhibit on my own. It was always about learning to depend on the Captain of my ship. Always has been, always will.
It’s like in the Bible when Peter tries to walk on water and all is well until he changes his focus to the waves instead of Jesus. He loses his balance, his faith is replaced with fear and it overtakes him. Just like the song says, “If your eyes are on the storm, you’ll wonder if I love you still,”….how true!
When we focus on everything we can’t control, all that is going wrong, the WRECKAGE and bondage and fear and uncertainty and pain—when we let that be our focal point, we question and doubt whether the Lord is in control.
Don’t we? I mean, isn’t that the whole reason behind why we worry? Because if we focused on Jesus and who we KNOW He is- proved time and time again- we would rejoice in the midst of the storm. It would just be another opportunity to witness His faithfulness. But, we don’t. We get caught up in our human tendency to do it on our own.
So I have decided that in this moment, the few uncertainties that were swirling around in my head this morning, I will let those go. I know my captain is experienced and getting through those waves will be just fine.
I am going to just be HELD.
I am going to let my spirit rest. My world is not falling apart and my life is not spiraling out of control. I know my view is limited and my wisdom in little in my own doing but with Jesus, I am confident that my life is falling into place.
His plan is great and it is mighty and it is worth it. When I don’t understand, I will trust. When I want to be scared, I will remember who is steering my ship. When I second-guess my ability to conquer the circumstances of my storm, I will remember that He calms the waves with one word.
Will you choose to be held with me?
It will not be easy. It will not be normal. If you have a psychotic tendency to always be “doing something proactive” like I do, just being held might feel lazy or confusing. It probably will feel opposite of your fleshly desire…which means it is exactly where you need to be.
And once you experience the comfort and the peace and the joy and the LIFE that takes place in the palm of His hand, you will always want to be held.
Your trust will increase and your worry will decrease and life will suddenly feel like everything is okay. Because it is. Because it always has been. Because Jesus has always and forever been loving and protecting you.
Be held. Stay there. Don’t get up. Surrender and remain.
“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” –Matthew 11:28-30, The Message