Nothing but the nightlight on.

December 16, 2015

Nothing but a nightlight on.

What do you do when you don’t have all the answers?

Really, this is a very practical question that I feel like we all ask ourselves during different stages of our lives. Whether at a large crossroads or facing a smaller task, the plague of uncertainty and the fear of going the wrong way can be paralyzing.

“Lord, what do I do? Where do I go? What are you asking of me?” We plead, secretly hoping that a burning bush will become inflamed on our next run or the seas will part on our behalf.

As I myself have been tormented with this fear of wrecking the will of my Heavenly Father, I have been so challenged with this “faith” I claim to have.

It wasn’t that I didn’t know the next step to take, it was that I didn’t know where that next step led me.

It was just enough light for the step I was on and just enough strength for that day.

But guess what- I WANTED MORE! Just Today isn’t enough, Jesus! Haven’t you seen my planner?! I want a spotlight, not a night light!

“But Jesus, I don’t understand! I am so scared. What will be after that? How do I know this is right?” We ask.

“You trust. You release your fear to me and trust thAt I am working on your behalf. Child, I am for you. Your fear doesn’t shock me, your crossroads doesn’t confuse me and your lack of faith doesn’t disengage me. But you must learn as you go that I will not let you stay where you are. I want you to become more like Me and in order to do that, you must step out in faith.

Here, hold my hand. Will you follow?” Our maker asks.

Quivering, shaking in our own boots and not even recognizing our own voice say “yes”, we begin.

And as the journey continues, more light is shed, more confidence is gained, greater things are revealed, our faith is strengthened, our trust deepened and His glory illuminates our path.

Faith is so hard. Sounds like a silly and elementary way to put it but it’s so true. Believing what we can not see and trusting the One we sometimes struggle to even feel sometimes, that is not easy. But that’s the point!

The more that we trust, the easier this whole “trusting” thing gets.

I don’t think it’s that we necessarily have some light beam into the future after we act in faith but rather we do not fret about the rocks or hurdles along the path ahead. We focus on how tightly our grip is to the One guiding us and as we grasp and seek and long and believe, we know.

Our soul simply KNOWS He will not lead us astray.

Friend, I don’t know your journey. But I do know that whatever you’re facing and whatever step you’re on, trust Him.

If you Are worried to take the next step but know He has asked you to move forward, apply your faith. You must put it into action if you want to witness His faithfulness.

I am praying for you.

And can I just tell you that I am so grateful for a Jesus who constantly reaches for my hand even after I stubbornly remove it from His grasp. Unwavering grace- there is simply no greater gift.

“Your word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path.” -Psalm 119:105

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