You're safe in the Father's hand.

I could feel the weight of her sadness and the depth of her confusion.
“How will it all shake out? Will I have the energy to sustain when I already feel like I can’t breathe?”
I was sitting with her, praying + crying out to God before she took off for her first chemo treatment. She had just been told that the big C word was in fact, her new reality. Multiple tests + misdiagnoses later, here she sat, like a fish out of water watching her own life from above and yet knowing, this wasn’t the time to tap out but tap in.
But as she talked and began to set each fear down at His feet, she began speaking faith over her situation.
“I didn’t expect this but I know I can fight it.”
“It’s already brought my family closer together.”
“This test—it WILL be part of my testimony.”

Her hope amidst her grief peaking out like the sun behind the clouds, making its way forward as it whispers, “I haven’t gone away; you just had to fight a little harder to see me.”

At the bottom of the pool of her tears—of both sorrow and strength—of both anxiety about tomorrow + anticipation of what the Father will do—I believe was this question:
“WILL I BE OKAY?”

There weren’t many words I could offer and to be honest, my body wrestled with wanting to shake my fist at God and yet, I felt so full of a simmering hope.
God had not abandoned her: His eyes are so keenly aware of her situation + her needs.
He is our Father. He sets the table before we ever enter the door.

And so we just talked about this—the reality that Goliath is big and scary and LOUD and sterile. And yet, He doesn’t stand a chance against the plans of our good God, whatever they look like.
We aren’t in jeopardy.
In all our panic, we can calm our soul + find the front of the boat. Remember, Jesus was sleeping in the storm. We can ask Him to remind us of who He is when we forget.
And still He will say, “Use the stones in your pocket. They are big enough.”
His heart is that we would realize He has had us in mind the ENTIRE time—our preparation for today’s fight was not a reactionary after thought; we have been positioned + prepared to show up right where we are.

You’re safe. It will be okay because your Father is here 🤍